♥ Lately I've been noticing I say the same things she used to say and I even find myself acting the very same way. When I look in the mirror, she's right there in my eyes staring back at me. And I realize the older I get the more I can see how much she loved my dad and my sister and me, and she did the best that she could and I only hope when I have my own family that everyday I see a little more of my mom in me.
There were times I thought she was being just a little bit hard on me, but now I understand she was making me become the woman she knew that I could be. In everything she ever did she always did it with love and I'm proud today to say I'm her daughter ♥

The greatest trick the Devil ever pulled was convincing the world he didn't exists.

'Do you love me?' I asked her.
She smiled. 'Yes.'
'Do you want me to be happy?' As I asked her this I felt my heart beginning to reace.
'Of course I do.'
'Will you do something for me then?'
She looked away, sadness crossing her features. 'I don't know if I can anymore'. She said.
'But if you could, would you?' I cannot adequately describe the intensity of what I was feeling at that moment: love, anger, sadness, hope and fear.
Jamie looked at me curiously. Suddenly I knew that I'd never felt as strongly for another person as I did at that moment. As I returned her gaze, this simple realization made me wish for the millionth time that I could make all this go away. Had it been possible, I would have traded my life for hers. I wanted to tell her my thoughts, but the sound of her voice suddenly silenced the emotions inside me.
'Yes' she finally said, her voice weak yet somehow still full of promise. 'I would'.
Finally getting control of myself I kissed her again, then brot my hand to her face, gently running my fingers over her cheek. I marveled at the softness of her skin, the gentleness I saw in her eyes. Even now she was perfect. My throat began to tighten again, but as I said, I knew what I had to do. Since I had to accept that it was not within my power to cure her, what I wanted to do was give her something that she'd wanted. It was what my heart had been telling me to do all along.
I smiled softly, and she returned my affection with a slight squeeze of my hand, as if trusting me in what I was about to do. Encouraged, I leaned closer and took a deep breath. When I exhaled, these were the words that flowed with my breath. 'Will you marry me?'

I finally understood what true love means. Love means that you care for another person's happiness more than your own, no matter how painful the choices you face might be.

And it's not just a game, you can't throw me away, I put all I had on the line and I give and you take. And I played the high stakes, I've won and I've lost, but I'm fine.
Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end, hear me say I'll stand up for my friends and I crash to the ground and it's just my own sound, I drop in the blink of an eye, I'm colorblind.
Hear me say I'll see the sky again, hear me say I'll die for you my friend. There's a noise in the crowd, but it's just my own shout. I stumble, I fall and I pray.
Hear you say your eyes see green again, in the end we'll lift our golden hands. Yes, we'll spark, you and I, we'll be colorblind and these are the lives we gave.
Hear me say I'll rise up 'til the end, hear me say that I'll stand beside my friends. I won't stay on the floor, I will settle the score. I'll stumble, I'll fall and I'll pray.
Hear me say it's time we stopped our hate. Eye to eye we see a different fate. Yes, we've conquered the war with love at the core.
I stumble, I fall, but I'll stay.