Ben: When I was in home growing up, my father had this amazing hability to always let me down in the exact most important moments. I mean it was incredible, little times like baseball games, you know, he said he'd be there, so I tried really hard, but of course he never went, he forgot. Birthday parties, my high school graduation, he didn't show up. There were other things too, he get angry sometimes. I must be really dense, because it took me forever to realize he's like a raging alcoholic, he broked things, hit things and he hit us.
My whole life I spent trying to figured out what I was doing to make him that way. Like what mistake was I'm making, how did I somehow hurted him to make him act that way.
Anyway, it's weird, living here, being away, you know. All of the sudden I have this distance from that madness. And the one thing I can see know, that I can never see before is that it wasn't me, it wasn't me. I'm not the reason he drink. I'm not the reason he get mad and hurt me and hurt my mom.
It was him. It wasn't me, It was him. I just wanted to tell you that.

It's amazing how we blame ourselfs. Probably just human nature to try to make sense of things, random things. I think the scariest part is realizing that sometimes bad things just happen, no reason, no purpose.
They just occur and we're left to pick up the pieces. I guess that's what we're all doing all the time, just picking up the pieces the best we can.