♥ And when his lips met mine, I knew that I could live to be a hundred and visit every country in the world, but nothing would ever compare to that single moment when I first kissed the man of my dreams and knew that my love would last forever ♥

You remembered me of him, strong and kind, confident… in your own way. You even look like him.
He and I met in the subway platform just like you and I met. Like you, he carried a handkerchief. I was very sick at that time and he take care of me, like you did. As you and I got to know each other, I felt the clog begins to lift a little bit. I thought it was the similarities between you and him, and so, I decided that you and I would do everything he and I done; that way, it would almost like he never died and the pain would stop.
Because on our 33rd day together, he bought me a rose, I ask you to do the same. Because he and I planned our future under this tree, I chose it for you and I as well. Because he and I had a favorite restaurant, I bought you there. Because he died in the ocean, I pushed you to go in and then saved you.
All of those was crazy and selfish and wrong, I know, but grief can make us crazy. Anyway, it didn’t work and at certain point I realized I didn’t like you because of him, I liked you because I like you. And every time I started to be happy, I would stop myself. It felt wrong to be happy; it felt wrong to let go and just forget about him, even for just a minute. It felt I was betraying him. All I can do was hurt you, and that’s not me, that’s not me at all. And someday I hope I can show you as much.
Something has to be done. In order for us to have a chance in the future, I have to make a break with the past and for this I needed time. I hope I heal while we’re apart, and sit with you while reading this. But if I'm not, it's not because I don’t love you, because I do. It's not because I don’t miss you, because I miss you already. It just means that I’m not better and the story isn’t over yet.

♥ I have no idea where you are out in the world and I understand that I lost the right to know these things a long time ago. So I just hope that you're safe, wherever you are, and that you're happy. And I hope that on a night like tonight, you still think of me. And so I want you to know that no matter what happens, no matter where you are in the world, no matter how many years go by, no matter if you say it back or not, I know it's as true as it ever was, as it always will be.
I love you ♥

This time, this place. Misused, mistakes. Too long, too late.
Who was I to make you wait?
Just one chance, just one breath, just in case there's just one left because you know, you know, you know. That I love you, I have loved you all along and I miss you. Been far away for far too long. I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go. Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.
On my knees, I'll ask last chance for one last dance, because with you I'd withstand all of hell to hold your hand. I'd give it all, I'd give for us. Give anything but I won't give up, because you know, you know, you know that I love you, I have loved you all along and I miss you. Been far away for far too long. I keep dreaming you'll be with me and you'll never go. Stop breathing if I don't see you anymore.
I wanted you to stay, because I needed you to know that I love you, I have loved you all along and I forgive you for being away for far too long.

I would rather have had
one breath of his hair,
one kiss from his mouth,
one touch of his hand,
than eternity without it.

I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.

The man of my dreams has almost faded now, the one I have created in my mind. The sort of man each woman dreams of in the deepest and most secret reaches of her heart. I can almost see him now before me. What would I say to him, if he were really here? Forgive me, I have never known this feeling, I've lived without it all my life. Is it any wonder, then, that I fail to recognize you? You, who brought it to me for the first time. Is there any way I can tell you how my life has changed? Any way at all to let you know what sweetness you have given me? There is so much to say... I cannot find the words. Except for these-- I love you! Such would I say to him, if he were really here.

Claro que se lo que es el amor. Es confuso, extraño y te hace hacer y decir muchas estupideces, pero esta bien, porque la otra persona piensa que es lindo.
Cuando lo veo a el, veo el futuro. Veo hermosos bebes con sus ojos y su pelo, veo camionetas llenas de basura para bebe dentro, veo el departamento lleno de pañales y biberones y tonterias innecesarias que compran los papás… y sabes que? No me asusta. No me asusta en absoluto el hecho de que probablemente no dormire, ni podre comprar o gastar dinero en cosas que ahora si, o que probablemente me salgan canas de todos los malditos enfermos que tendre que alejar de mis hijas… no me da miedo. Porque tambien veo su sonrisa, veo su cara de satisfaccion y orgullo al mirar a nuestros hijos. Veo como me sonrie cuando llevo a mis brazos a alguno de ellos. Y eso hace que todo valga la pena, el verlo feliz hace que todo el infierno que tuve que pasar en mi vida valga la pena, porque me guio a el y nunca habia sentido la satisfaccion de ver sonreir a alguien gracias a mi. Y es lo mas maravilloso del mundo escuchar que me ama, a mi. Y se que no me equivoco, se que lo amo, se que compartir mi vida con el es la decision correcta, porque la estoy compartiendo con mi mejor amigo.

Me enseñaste la realidad de la vida. Me enseñaste que yo no soy ninguna princesa, que vos no sos un principe azul a lomos de su caballo blanco, y que la vida no es ningun cuento de hadas. Y eso, es lo mejor que podias haber hecho por mi.

♥ Destiny is the bridge you build to the one you love ♥